Trying to master the general aspects of a life cropped in accordance with this love-born contour we happened to see fit for us is in itself a feat of provocative greatness.
From how we shouldn’t have felt to where we actually came to find ourselves buried in; this time interval, an undetermined length that we struggle to define with words probably incapable of describing what has always been so questionable.
How we find no time to keep up with an existence seemingly bound to be flawed from this moment on. We believe in this fulminant dark culmination so bluntly that we are led to consider our collapse something casual, a possible occurrence. Intelligently, we detect no purpose in fighting what’s supposed to unroll, it’s life and life’s knowingly made of these occasions. And this capability for abstract thought based on emotional disposition, a recognition and understanding of reality as we wished it could be, molding it and seeing it vanish once we try to plant it in this mundane world, it is our ruination.
Our mind trims a maze of alienation and we calmly greet its twists and turns, for it takes us only where we feel capable of going, as undisturbed as possible, and still we somehow ask for progress though we obviously find a sharper warmth in standing unaltered. We ignore what we need when we need it most, there’s no help, no one who could or should, they try but they’re not us to come and eximeously think or feel on our behalf.
We linger strong and long after sunset, insomnia grasps our time to dream with what might be lighter, while shadows fall upon the clock consuming our already darkened spectre. We sleep to forget, drinking solely steals the focus of us grievants. Having loved is something to be proud of but taking pride in being hurt seems senseless, it certainly is, but it’s the last thing we can eventually show off before time washes everything away and frees us.
How hard can it be to fight against an awareness willing to bleed and perhaps die in the name of a love? Well, as hard as the amount of effort you put into staying awake and alive for a cause that will perish as soon as you dare to leave it behind.