It’s curious how you feel so alive and well when you’ve completely fallen in love with someone. However, that beautiful felling around your belly that warms your heart will probably start to put its weight on you, as you begin to understand that your beloved doesn’t love you that much after all. Maybe it was an illusion; it sure felt good, but now its over and you’ve got to deal with it like a man.
A break up can be one of the hardest thing you will ever experience in life, and I suppose and totally feel that the first time it happens, it leaves that bitter taste; and that taste wont leave your mouth, at least for a while (but I don’t dare to say it will remain forever, because you’ll see it won’t); for that taste is a valuable lesson you had the privilege of learning.
Feeling forced to erase all feelings you have longed for someone for how long of a time it had been (doesn’t matter how much), seems impossible at first, especially when/if that ending has shocked you in some way. You just didn’t expect it at all, probably because you chose to close your eyes and not see the real truth happening all around you.
We say its difficult to get over a loved one and the memories shared. And now, I’m presuming you really had a fruitful relationship with that person, and that the love you lost was really real at some point of your life. The two of you were something, a couple, something physically tangible.
Now, let me explain another situation. How about you loving someone you never truly had. She is just a friend, or seems like it, at least for those more distracted being too in love with each other to notice the fact that you fell in love with pretty blonde classmate everyone knows but no one dares to want. Let’s see…
The feeling you hold for that girl may be unfounded for some, stupid for others, but for you is the realest thing you have felt, and you are sure now that it will last forever. Because true love never dies, right!?
Supposing she just loves you as friend and can’t see the brilliant guy you are inside, and how you could be capable of loving her in an unimaginable way for her (not for you, because you are tired of thinking how everything would happen between the two of you, every step, every kiss, everything all planned in your sweet and lovely mind); something so deep she simply can’t see, her mind can’t touch it. That’s why she ignores you, because she is being a fool. But as you are in love, you just prefer to look at the indifference as something normal. And if you actually try to change your way of looking at this, one day she will gaze at you again during english class, with those mesmerizing baby blues, and you will take it all back and sink deep into love again. Just like that, a look and you’re hers to play again (if she wanted, but you are not that lucky!).
Now let’s face the truth here. She knows how much you need her (because girls now that shit), but she doesn’t see you at all. You are just that guy from the back row who is always smiling when she looks back.
So how do you end something that does not exist? You don’t, you simply get wiser, and hopefully, one day, you will be able to look at her objectively and feel nothing again. That’s pretty much how it goes, because she doesn’t deserve you, and you definitely don’t deserve someone who doesn’t deserve you. It would be a double illusion. A really sad but real truth.
You will see, that now you’ve finally released yourself from that downward spiral of unrequited love, you will feel free again, and willing to find the right girl for you. And yes, if things didn’t work out with the love of your life, it happened for a reason. There is someone out there who simply felt undeserved like you and is anxious to find a reasonable and awesome man who can give her witty answers and make her smile in a way she couldn’t find possible.
And well… if you make her
smile (truly smile, an inside smile), it’s done!. She is yours and that’s how love is born. And this time, we hope, that love won’t have to die inside of you again.